Date from Hell!

Sis, I know that if you are reading this blog, it is because we have something in common. We both believed the beautiful liar sent to love us to DEATH. The more that I learn and develop in my "Heavenly Father/ Daughter" relationship, it seems that I become more aware of how insane domestic violence really is. I think sometimes if we just slow down and really access what is actually happening, a lot of us would leave years sooner! Whatever it was that hurt you in your childhood or teen years, it really impacted you more than you know. Those painful events really helped to shape the battered woman we are today. If you're anything like me, then your experiences from your childhood caused you to desire certain things desperately as you got older.

The constant attacks and assaults from being bullied caused me to be desperate for a friend group. The violence in my home and community caused me to desire safety at all costs. All of the disconnects from my family really caused me to want connection and communities at heightened levels. The insults regarding my looks caused me to want to be beautiful in someone's eyes for once. We are groomed by various forms of abuse as we are growing up. It causes us to view ourselves in a distorted way and this helps Satan to bring people into your life who seems as if they are the perfect solution, but they came to increase the pain discreetly.

I met this person just off the brink of a devastating closure of a very intense "situation-ship". Which in time I learned was just another narcissist who had been successful in triangulating me with the other women that he already held captive emotionally. This "Catalyst" narcissist set the tone for the attacks I would welcome in the 7 year abusive relationship I found myself in with a covert narcissist. He came in at a time that I was so broken and desperate. I ignorantly shared my whole life's story with this person and he promised to be all that everyone else wouldn't. He had the intel he needed to attack me and so he began the assault.

I thought that I was entering a space of warmth, peace, comfort, love, and connection. I had in fact entered into HELL. This individual abused me in every way that a person could be abused, and I allowed it for years because of my distorted views of myself. I continued to operate from all of the traumatic programming from my childhood. I allowed all of this to continue until I cried out one day. I just couldn't take it anymore! I couldn't take another day being treated like I was worthless yet expected to fulfill every wish and desire of this person. I realized that every time you look for prince charming, you will receive a date from HELL! Prince charming doesn't exist and only Jesus came to actually save us! He is my knight in shining armor and the moment I chose Him, my life began to change.

Sis, it took notebooks of writing out my thoughts, feelings, experiences, and telling my Heavenly Father (GOD) all about the things that hurt me and asked him to heal me from those deep wounds and scars on my soul, heart, mind, and body. His words in the Holy Bible, prayer, Holy Spirit, and every sermon that I've heard have done just that. I encourage you to just cry out to God. Tell him that you're sorry that you allowed this abusive man to lord over you like an evil god. Tell him that you believe him when he says you are his treasured possession. Choose to learn about him and the real UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that he has for you and leave the date from Hell! Put your crown on and live the free and abundant life that Jesus died for you to live Sis!

Please utilize the contact form on my blog website to send me personal prayer request, advice about your situation, and personal questions I will respond as time permits.Sis as I am a prayer warrior/intercessor for Christ I love you sis and be blessed!