SHEER AMAZEMENT

Hey Siss! Welcome back to my blog. Today I am in sheer amazement of just how faithful our Heavenly Father is. I think at times we think of Him being so unrelatable or distant. When we read the Bible, we learn that our God actually has... FEELINGS and EMOTIONS. We were literally made in His image. I'm learning that we have so much in common with Him. Just as we want to be received, heard, and understood... our Heavenly Father desires the same. Imagine your child being stolen from you. Imagine having to watch them being reared in ways that are detestable to you and being prohibited to certain degrees from reaching them. You can't connect directly, so you try to reach them through other people connected to you. (pastors, prophets, teachers). You left a treasured book that would give them extreme clues, but everyone encourages them not to read it (Bible). Your heart is connected to theirs, but the thief fills their minds with evil, so the heart turns cold or breaks. This HURTS OUR FATHER like you wouldn't believe!!! He is the Father to us all. We are His treasured possessions.

He is Almighty and All Powerful so even Satan's attempts to keep us away from our Father are truly futile. When life comes crashing down and we can't turn to one more empty solution... all we need to do is cry out to Jesus! When we cry out to him to save us and that we believe that He came to save our souls (mind, will, emotions) when He died on the cross for our sins and arose in 3 days. Then there is nothing the enemy can do at that point! The lost child has returned home to their Royal Home and Heavenly Father! It amazes me how NONE of the horrible sinful things that I did in my past, stopped Him from loving me. He loved me before I ever fell. He loved me when He was forming me in my mother's womb. He loved me when I could care less about him and I was captivated by sexual perversion, pride, and struggling with addictions.

I began to shift in my mind and awareness of my true worth as I read the Bible and The Holy Spirit began to teach me truths about my life's experiences thus far and why I had the proclivities that I did. He taught me that all the trauma that I endured was demonic and it lured me into sin and fragmented my mind and perception of myself. I learned that the "spirits" of Rejection, Fear. Abandonment, Molestation, Neglect, Poverty, Homosexuality, and so many more impacted my soul and had me in spiritual BONDAGE! I was abused since childhood and all my life I have been looking for an escape from it. Pain will cause you to reduce yourself in shameful ways just to find comfort. I sought comfort from men in relationships. I made a relationship my god. These men were idols. I needed their love and validation. I needed them in order to have a family. I needed them in order to have SOMEONE around. I needed them to give me value. I found myself in domestic abuse over and over with narcissistic men.

I'm simply amazed that after nearly all of my life of living in sin, worshipping other gods, and completely ignoring Jesus... that the MOMENT I CRIED OUT TO HIM HE ANSWERED ME IMMEDIATELY! In November 2019 when I cried out in that closet in the middle of the day for Jesus... He came. I chose that day to make Him my SAVIOR and no longer a man. THIS IS REAL LOVE- "For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" John 3:16. This is my testimony forever. I will always be in sheer amazement of this life that is SUPERNATURAL and the intense attacks we all face due to this fallen evil world and its attempts to keep our identities as Daughters of The Most High God of Israel hidden. I encourage you to arise today! I am not the only woman who suffered in silence in their childhood and simply fell into the demonic thought and life patterns of bondage that Satan wanted. He is a horrible Enemy who knows we are spirits who have souls and just live temporarily in these bodies. He wants to keep us separated from our Heavenly Father and living a life opposite of Him. He knows the outcome of that is ETERNAL DAMNATION IN HELL. I know what it felt like to be tormented behind closed doors and also within my mind. Why would I want to do anything that would cause me to be in a perpetual state of torment! I choose life instead.

Sis.. join me and you will begin to be amazed at just how much our Heavenly Father loves you. Accept JESUS as your Lord and Savior today and allow Him to heal every broken part of you.