When DARKNESS falls...

We have to understand that there is a war between darkness and light. When you begin to read your bible, you will learn that the LIGHT has already won. You just have to become conscious of that in order to rid yourself of the darkness when it tries to appear. I realized in moments of reflection that I was always afraid. I was afraid as a child due to living in unsafe conditions and violent home environments. I was afraid of going to school because I didn't know if it would be another day of bullying from my classmates due to my appearance or that I was less fortunate than others. I lived in fear of coming home and the lights and water being turned off again. I was afraid of coming home and having to bear the wrath of my mother and what seemed like her hatred for me. I was always afraid Sis..

These were all satanic attacks as The Holy Spirit revealed to me in 2019. This is the year that I cried out in desperation one day when I was home alone, and my abuser was at work. I began to pray and journal, and the Holy Spirit began to help me uncover the roots as to why I was stuck in the prison of this narcissistic man. I was conditioned by darkness in the form of abuse. This caused me to desire to be loved, wanted, included, and desired to abnormal degrees. I didn't see that Satan latched on to me as a child and was determined to never let me go. I was conditioned by my experiences, and it taught me to be desperate and to find solutions to rid myself of all that had happened to me.

When I look back at my younger self sometimes, I weep for her because of the horrible things endured while trying to receive the basic necessities in the forms of love, connection, inclusion, and community. I can see now that I was always surrounded by darkness, and it impacted the way that I viewed myself. I couldn't see that it was all arranged for me to accept the sinful sexual lifestyle that I began to adopt in my teenage years as I believed love was found in relationships or sex. This created a covenant with evil disguised as pleasure and remedies to my pain. I was being prepped to receive abuse through relationships unknowingly due to my overwhelming desire to feel and be loved. The darkness continued in my life for decades. It landed me in an abusive relationship with a covert narcissist that was psychotic.

In John 8:12 it says "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life". I am living proof that this scripture is TRUTH! Light came into my life when I begin to read, study, and pray! I learned the truth about my value, purpose, and identity in Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit spoke to me through the scriptures, and I saw this DARK ENEMY that had been attacking God's Hidden children on this earth for thousands of years. He attacks your mind, will, and emotions. This is your SOUL! I began to understand why I was always afraid. I needed to welcome my Heavenly Father into my heart, mind, body, and soul and love him back. This is when the darkness lost its power grip over me.

If darkness has been falling over you, then it's time to welcome Jesus into your life because he is the LIGHT that defeats all forms of darkness. I was afraid to leave him, and I was afraid to stay. I was afraid of being alone and feeling all those emotions and the thoughts that have plagued me all of my life. The instant that I choose Jesus, he began to strengthen me and show me that I held the power and value all along. I encourage you today to choose the Light and no longer allow darkness to keep you as its prisoner. The gift of salvation, which is Jesus dying for your sins, is yours to receive today. When you believe in Jesus and that he died for you to live and be brought back into the Kingdom of God, then all darkness has to flee in his name! You were not created to be abused and believe it to be love. God is love and his Son died for you to be free!

Today is July 28, 2023, and this will mark three years that I have been free from the abuse of the 7 year relationship with a covert narcissist that I was engaged to. My life is proof that whom the Son sets free.. is free indeed! Choose life today Sis.. and LIVE FREE FROM DARKNESS.